THOSES OF US WHO DO NOT FIT IN.

WE ARE NOT ALONE, THE LORD JESUS CHRIST DID NOT EVER FIT IN!!!

The Kingdom Of Heaven Government Transformational Apostle, James R, Winfree, Sr.

The Lord's Chosen, Anointed, Appointed, On Fire And Filled With The Holy Ghost, Will Never Ever Really Fit Into Today's Religious Services & Worship Meetings.

In continuing my social media blogs and teaching on The Church Religious Buildings, Out-Dated Old Testament Giving, Keeping the Laws And Old Testament Commandments And Covenants.

I hope you come away with a loving biblical perspective and insight into this series on Building Up Yeshua True Church. His Born Again, Blood Washed, Holy Ghost Filled, Believers.

Institutional Churches and I have a complicated relationship as many as you well know by now if you have been following my ministry teaching here on social media. Like, “How do I condense this into a loving biblical word blog post?!” kind of complicated. I don’t share my spiritual life very often with other Christians because far too often it’s met with a pat answer quoting Hebrews 10 or admonishing me that I must not love God if I have a problem with their religious church services and its worships. Building bridges between the ministers and the Church that Yeshua birth and built-in Acts, though, means I need to let down my walls a little bit and trust that the other Christian Believers are going to truly listen and understand. So for those of you who are listening, THANK YOU. Here goes.

I grew up an extremely faithful Baptists Churchgoer. I was there every Sunday morning, as well as most Sunday evenings and Wednesdays. I’m not sure I could say I ever got anything out of going to Church as they called it. It was just something I did because I was made to do and go by my parents...

Now, keep in mind I definitely had encounters with God. They just always happened outside of the religious church buildings. Even the Christians I was closest to were people I met elsewhere. The longer I attended, the more I felt like my personal relationship with God and my churchgoing had little to no impact on each other.

I felt more and more disconnected from my local religious body of believers. I suspect I’d always been disconnected, but I finally became aware of it. I started noticing the differences between myself and those around me. Unlike everyone else, I didn’t get anything out of the church, I was extremely passionate about knowing God and going to heaven and missing that very hot place called hell, and as an introvert, I dreaded the many social tasks expected of me as a committed Christian in most religious services. But instead of feeling like this gave me a unique place to fill in the body of Christ, I just felt like maybe I didn’t belong here at all. Too much you have to do, and give to get to heaven, they taught us in those days, and many are still teaching that our works and membership going to get us into heaven, this is not biblically true.

I started taking “breaks” from religious church meetings and its services, and every time I decided to stay home and pray, seek the Lord, study my own bible and fast and pray, it was like a weight was lifted off my chest. But then it would come time for me to go back to the religious buildings, and that weight would get heavier. I dreaded more than anything having to answer questions about why I hadn’t been there. I spent hours crafting replies that wouldn’t make me sound like a “backslider LOL.” I was fully confident in the strength of my own relationship with Christ, but almost every time I tried to question with a religious Churchgoer why the Church buildings were so difficult for me, the responses were stern lectures that made me feel guiltier and more desperate than ever to withdraw.

Over many years, religious church joining has never gone away. I’ve moved several times since then and tried new Churches, thinking maybe this time it would be different, but no, every time, the Holy Ghost comes back and speak to me and say you are My temple, sometimes dissolving me into terrified tears as early as Saturday morning, knowing I’m going to have to go the next day just to prove to people I’m still a Christian. Sometimes I pushed past the voice of God and went anyway and came home shaken and exhausted from trying to fit in. Sometimes I gave up and stayed home and felt so much better until the guilt set in. Many of you are going through this very same thing as I write this, the Holy Spirit says, and He told me to tell you, that you are not alone, Jesus Christ Himself did not fit in.

I’ve had so many personal friends leave the institutional Churches for theological reasons. For me, the church just became… a social club and a religious party house.

A few years ago so many of God's people and dear friends asked me on Facebook and the many other web sites we're on about the Church and what they could do to help Christians like me who feels this way. I gave my many years of biblical studies of God's word-loving answer. Frankly, I Yeshua gave gifts to men, and He gave some Apostles, some Prophets, some Evangelists, some Pastors, Some Teachers for the Church body, and He did not give these ministry gifts to bless or meet the needs of the world...And He, Jesus did not leave in charge of His Church family, only the Pastors, Bishops, Ministries Founders, know this is a biblical truth problem with the Churches & Leadership.

So where do we go from here?

Well, I can tell you what I’m working on at my end. I’m working on getting this biblical truth out to help so many Christians with these very same issues in the faith because maybe that’ll overflow into a real biblical fellowship where every member is important and respected. I’m trying to make a point of being used by the Lord and His transformation power, the Holy Spirit and His New Testament Word in sharing and teaching God's sons and daughters His truth... (the last years, this has been placed by the Lord Himself on my heart and in my spirit to see His Churches-Free). I’m working on letting down some of my walls and trusting that not everyone in the religious church is as judgmental as others, and I need to give them a chance not to be.

As far as what the rest of the Churches Leader can do, there is biblical New Testament truth of the faith that I know most Christians would say they believed but that isn’t being put into action enough. The finances are not being shared with Christian families and Christian marriages believers in the fellowships and the Christian communities are the best example of true fellowship both lived these beliefs out every day as it is written in God's word.

Th the beauty of diversity among the body of Christ, that each person has a unique gift from God that makes them not only helpful but essential to the body. Too often our ministering opportunities are incredibly restricted: teaching, worship team, children’s program, and “service” ministry (setting up tables, cleaning up, cooking meals, that kind of thing). You fit into those ministries or you don’t serve. Its time for all of God's spiritual gifts to be used and supported, Not just the Pastors, their families, their religious buddies,

This is the idea that we are all sinners and living in a fallen world. We say this ALL THE TIME, but somehow the institutional church gets super stuck when it comes to actually deal with the brokenness of members and their needs. Pastors often have two extremes, either they come down really hard on them (which makes them feel perpetually broken and fills them with self-loathing), or the Church's body gloss over it entirely (which doesn’t give anyone a chance to get the help and the support they need). When they mess up, They KNOW they messed up and they don’t need someone sternly lecturing them about it like children. God's Grace can change what they already did. They, the Christian family need someone to be there with me to help them pick up the pieces, to remind them they are not beyond repair, and to support them as they move forward. Not just keep on taking their financial support and giving it to world missions.

Thank you to those of you who read and love the truth. That do not fit in, because Yeshua didn't fit in, I know we can be doing in our Christian fellowships to help meet the needs of Christians just like us:

Love each other, Listen to each other, Support each other, Respect each other.

I am doing my best to listen to and trust those who have found amazing Christian Fellowships. It keeps me feeling hopeful because I’ve seen things from their point of view and have a story of hope. And I hope stories like mine will keep Christians from being angry at or judgmental of those of us who struggle with the religious church and its today's leadership because now you’ve seen things from my point of view. Sometimes it all starts by just listening, and even if I do have a lot of good solid biblical answers, maybe some of you do and can work toward paving an easier path for Christians like us to let us get together and do ministry Jesus and His Apostles Way. Amen. I'm still waiting!!!

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